Letters to
A: I hate you because there was never any trust. You know everything about me from then but you never told me enough for me to feel like you truly thought I was special. It's okay. I know you were dealing with a lot. I never want to hear from you again but I crave catharsis, I wish I could explain how much it pains me for your lack of answers, why did you treat me like that? I want to show off to you how much better my life is without you in it. I want to show off to you and leave you forever because when you started leaving me in the dust it really hurt. There was no one to tell.
E: You never accepted me really and even though you always stuck around and you say our friendship is the same no matter the year and no matter the place and no matter how long we've talked I still have an immeasurable distance from you and it's because you're always trying to get me to change, you were always trying to change us back to how you imagined us in sixth grade it's not perfect it will never be perfect. You say you want to go back and I used to agree with you because of the stolen hours and the stolen days and the plants we grew and the memories we shared but now I don't because I would never go back and lose the loss I had the loss is important and I love it now and I never want to go back. No, it is not the same.
N: You were the first person I was truly jealous of.
A: You were the second person I was truly jealous of. I miss when we were friends, it was nice.
R: I knew you would be embarrassed of all of us someday.
H+C: How do you pretend it never happened?
A: I don't know if it can be the same anymore.
I: I wish you never liked me in the first place.
S: You always treated me like porcelain. We couldn't ever really be friends because of that.
A: How do you pretend it never happened?